life goes on..

Today, I went to AIA and Ms. Ling's house.. picturees=):

The girls were bored so..they took a picture..Luke calls this "IT TAKES 5". they look like Charlie's Angels to me...

Take 2~ With the dude in the Background.

Bored again..Waiting for Luke..i have NO idea why we took this photo.

Candice and Sharon's "pose"

Maia, Candice, Joni, and Sharon waiting to die on Top Buzz.

Josh and Luke. They had NO idea i was taking this=) that's why Luke look so....soo......ya..

Toby and Kelsey on the thing....I think its the Caterpillar. =)

Big Slide!!=) with AIA dude there

Kelsey and Toby lining up for the slide=)

Maia finishing up the slide=)

Next pictures are on the ferris wheel.

Sharon(taking picture), Mel, Christine(eating ice cream), and Maia.

Candice, Josh, and Luke. Josh is eating Ice-cream..and In Candice's arms is bunny rabbit and she is drinking Coke Zero=).

Candice, Josh, Luke. AGAIN

Sharon, Mel, Christine and a bit of joni and maia.

Sharon..ya..don't mind that her shirt is too small! Look! Luke's fish!

OKAYYY Enough of AIA. Now here are some pictures from Ms. Ling's house

Ms. Ling's TV. SHe has 2!!

Ms. Ling's bed/room.

Her couch with Luke and Gabriel and all their stuff on it.

Ms. Ling's roommate(mandy)'s room..yes. ROOMMATE

THE TOILET!!!=)

The Kitchen.

Well..that's it for now..I couldn't take that many pictures because we were eating and laughing tooooo harrdd!!

We were talking about..weirdish things in Ms. Ling's...ahem ahem i wonder who started it...lemme think...it was Ms. LING! She asked Sharon. We also watched Pacifier=)

Missing You! I'm sorry. I couldn't spend time with you. We will see each other soon! even if we miss each other that much=).

LOVE YOU!!=)

Poems...i wrote this...ermm...recently.. and ya. i was like almost crying when i was writing it.. i wrote it at school near the lockers. Its sorta sucks..but whatever..

His Playtoy

Everyday for lunch, I sit on the stairs.
I see people passing by as happy as can be.
I wonder what can life be about?

I've made the worse decisions.
I told the greatest friend to ignore me.
I broke a promise with a friend.
I told people I was alright even though i wasn't.
What could be worse?

Everyone is happy,
chatting,
finishing up homework,
walking around and being happy.

Why is MY life so screwed up?
Why the hell does it have too me like this?
Why the heck did I even LIVE?
Why did God have to make ME?

I guess I'm His playtoy.
He changes my life and feelings whenever
he is bored.
Or has nothing better to do.

**I'm such an idiot. There is no meaning to my life. I just live as God plays with my emotions.

Some things i want to say to some people.

Aaron: You're always on my "shouties" list=). you mean so much to be and i have NO idea where i'd be if you weren't there to bring me back onto my feet. You make me laugh my butt off EVERYday.
Gabriel: You always make me laugh when i need it. You help me on homework and usually succeeds. I have no idea how depressed i'd be without you and Aaron.
Wango: No offence to Sub. but i feel so close to you, you're like a brother to me and you tell me mostly everything and always has fun convos(my opinion) with me.thanks=)
Michael: You let me realize what I can do. Suicide is never the answer. thanks=).
Ben: I never find you annoying because you actually care about how I feel and when i'm down, you know it. thanks=).
Franny: hey franz..all i wanted to say is, no matter where you are.. remember our convos. =). never forget me.
Winnie: I know you might not see this and you're pretty sick and tired of me. I know you don't want to see me and stuff and all you want to do is ignore me..but i have to say, all the times i spent with you, i enjoyed a lot.
Hannah: You're always there to kick the sense into my head. except for in school xp. sighh..anyway, thanks for always being there for me.
Stephanie Cheung: You care about me but...nothing is gonna work out from now on. =(. I'm sure she does hate me with all her guts.

That's it for now.. I'm not in the mood to put everyone up there.

Okkk.. decided to update with A TON OF STUFF to put on here=)

Poems:

Down and Depressed

I sit here, thinking about life.
I figure that I'm depressed.
For no reason.

I started listening to Evanescence.
It doesn't help, but I continue.
It makes me down.

I get a message from my friend saying:
'Sorry. I got no time to deal with your problem."
I say to myself, THIS IS ONLY A DREAM.

I get down and more depressed.
I thought firneds will always have time.
They said they would.

I sit, down and depressed.
No one cares.
Then, a tear drops down my face.
My face is covered with them.
I cry for hours because I'm down and depressed.

**Like others, I'm down and depressed too

No one cares

Lying on my bed.
I think, my friends are there.
I think a little harder.
I realize that people I say are my friends, treat me like garbage.

I used to talk to them alot.
Now they all ignore me.
No one cares how I feel.
I treasure those people, while they think I'm nothing.

No one understands how I feel.
I try to ask those people for help, like usual.
No one replys.
They are all sick of me.
They are all to annoyed.

No one cares.
They all said they care and they are always there for me.
THOSE LIARS! THEY DON'T CARE!
I thought wrong as I usually do.

Friends, Ha!
They never stay with you.
Especially if they think you're annoying.
You can't always trust "friends".

**Friends.. no one is always nice. They may ACT like your friend. Then dump you away.

I can't go on

Everything piled up on top of each other.
Life sucks
No one cares.
All i thought to be true, is false.
Friends aren't true friends I thought they were.

I can't go on.
Too much is happening.
Nothing is right.
I can't go on through this hard time.

No one can help.
There are things that I will miss, But I can't go on any longer.

All I thought is false.
People said "I care about you." but they lie.
No body can make me stay.
I can't go on.
I can't.

**I wish this is just one of those poems i write for fun. But it's how i really feel=(.

OKAY! I know you guys are sad of really sad poems..so here is a nice, happy one=)

The answer

I lay on my bed thinking how my life sucks.
I think of things to do.
Cut Myself? nah!
Suicide? here it goes again!
Remeber things people have said? let's give it a try.

I tried and remembered things:
Aaron: Don't you dare, Graham Chung!
Janice: Graham Chung, stop it!!
Hannah: It's all your choice. But no matter what, i support you.
Ivan: haha
I thought more and remember what Leslie Chen said.

Leslie: The answer is God!
So, I prayed.
Like the wind, all my troubles seemed to fly away.
The answer: Is God.
God won't ever leave you.

**When things seem bad, pray. It helps. And Maia, always writing nonsense poems aren't that great=).

That's all I have right now=).

Valentines Day

This year, was the best valentines day i've had!=). A lot of things happened. =). But, Whatever. Not gonna list it all out. Some things to say to people:

Josh: Its okay. People will stop bugging u some day.
Belicia: LOL! I remember in Pre-Alg u wrote something that made me laugh my butt off!
Winnie: 6 bucks..ahha LOL!
Luke: You made me laugh during Magnificat when u said "welcome to the loser club where people didn't get anything for Valentines."
Candice: Don't be so depressed!!! ITS VALENTINES!
Aaron: You gone through 7-8 valentines days with me. HAHA! WTH, maybe next year, you might get something from ur special admirer=).

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Thanks:

Leslie: Let me realize what i can do.
Hannah: always supporting me.
Aaron: OMG. there are sooooooooo many darn things i can list. But i'll sum it up into six words: I can never live without you.
Sarah Mi: no. No. NO. NOOOOOOO. btw, thanks for keeping me in company=).
Michael: now ur the advice giver=).
Joni: what can i do without a pychologist llike you?
Wango: Thanks for keeping me in company 24/7.x)
Ray: Thanks for keeping me in company=).
Belicia: *giggle giggle giggle* HAHAHHA! Thanks=). U make me laugh sooooo much. >.<
Franny: Telling others ur emotions will help. Thanks for all the great times.
Josh: Thanks=). You're always there for me=). Don't be sad..please.
Alisa: I know you care. You and I used to have really weird conversations. hope we can have more=).

Okay..Its about it for now..x)

I'll keep this weblog for a longer period unless something REALLY REALLY important is neeeded to be posted. SO, enjoy=)